Life Update.
Things have been crazy, and this post is going to be honest.
Robby and I are not doing the greatest. We fight almost everyday. It’s horrible and I hate it. What I hate more is the fact that it happens around Aubree. I don’t want her childhood to be filled with fighting. She doesn’t deserve that by any means. I try to stay calm and talk it out instead of yelling. Sometimes that doesn’t happen. I feel terrible afterward.
Is it weird for me to be sad when I see Aubree? I mean, she doesn’t sadden me herself but I get sad that she’s getting older. She’s getting so much bigger and rolling over and laughing and she’s just so happy and healthy. I know it’s good, but it makes me sad. I love her so much and would give up anything for her. She’s my world. I know she will not stay little forever, and I’m trying to get every second out of being a Mommy. Even though I’m with her 24/7, it still feels not enough. Like, when I fold Kaylie’s clothes I want to cry because I know one day Aubree will be that big. Guess that just means I gotta keep having more, huh? Haha. Riiiiight!
Did I ever mention that she’s teething? Yeah, teething can suck it. Lol. I don’t mind her fussiness as much as I mind that she’s in pain. That’s what really bothers me. I hate seeing her in pain. She gets her shots Monday and I will probably lose it! Lol.
Oh one of the cutest things happened today! Usually Kaylie wants Aubree to play with her and she tries to grab her hands but Aubree can’t so Kaylie walks away and Aubree gets sad. Well, today I stood Aubree up on the floor and Kaylie was SO excited! It was like she was thinking “Hey! My cousin can walk now?!” So she walks over and puts her hands on her face and just starts laughing. Well, then she sees my hands around Aubree’s waist and she tried to pull them off! Then, she tried to put her arms around Aubree to take her! It was SO CUTE! Aubree was holding her arms out to her too. I felt so bad because I know she wants to play with her but can’t just yet. Lol. It was adorable, though. Gotta love little kids.
So, we moved into the house a few weeks ago and everything has been okay. We’re living with Nick (Robby’s cousin), Mareasa (Nick’s girlfriend) and their 2 year old Kaylie. We’ve had to have a lot of “talks” because of their parenting and other issues. They do try to work on it though and things are getting much better. I’m glad. Kaylie is not a bad child, she just needs help and guidance and to be taught things. I mean, she is slower, but she CAN learn. (:
I think that’s about it for my life update. If I think of anything else I’ll make another post.
Thanks for reading!
-Katilyn.
